It’s not as much of a rant as a revalation. And if anyone’s reading this, I’m not as lovesick and pathetic as this text will make me out to be. Fair warning, proceed at your own risk guys. So I’ve known since day one exactly how sentimental I am. If I’ve ever really let you in, then it’s really difficult for me to let go. Friendships and ‘special’ relationships alike. See. I’ve never understood how some girls go through boys like tissue. Use them, then dispose; all the while so head over heels with them-or so they claim. To me, if they really did like them, I’d say it’d take a good month till they’d dive in for more fish. Or maybe that’s just me. Believe me, I know as well as you do how junior high this sounds but, I haven’t even come close to having a crush on anyone in a while and that’s kind of unlike me. I thought I’d be overhwhlemed when I came into high school, but it’s actually the complete opposite.So here’s my theory: I hate being vulnerable. Is that way too obvious? When you like someone, you’re ultimately supsceptible to whatever they pull your way. If they’re a sucky person, they can manipulate your feelings. But even if the feeling was mutual, who’s to say he won’t wake up one day and feel differently. I’m definitely not linking this to any long term commitment, but I’m one for consistency, not a waste of time. I’m all for learning from experience, but where’s the sense in learning the same lesson by making the same mistake? I don’t even know if this whole concept is sensibile actually. Don’t judge me. Oh. Too late. I’m going to die lonely. K bye guys.